Life has been busy with a 3 year old, NOW TWO YEAR old and 6 month old! But it’s never too busy to celebrate life. Our second born, Sawyer, turned two years old this month, which is unbelievable to me.
It really, truly feels like I just caught her in the water yesterday. (HAHAHA. That sounds too funny!) All moms say that, don’t they (or something like it)? But it’s true, time goes by fast, even when it feels SOOOOO slow. In those moments of— WHOA! How did I miss that? Where have I been?— I want the world to pause so I can take it all in, memorize the moment, truly invest in and love these kids with my whole being. But life continues and we forget that feeling of urgency.
As I spent time thanking the Lord for Sawyer’s life and for two years of being her mother, something hit me. She was turning two, which meant she was done being one. She will never be a year old again. I know you’re thinking— yeah duh! But really, the numbers don’t stop or slow down, they get higher and our children grow; from infancy to adulthood, just like that!
Yes, life is busy and full of things we need to get done– we must work, we must cook, clean, invest in other relationships and so on. But child raising is not something we can “save for later” or “come back to,” it’s happening right now before our very eyes, they are growing up with or without us being a part of it.
Even as a stay-at-home-mom, I often find myself getting distracted by so many other things that seem “very important”. I tend to value being productive over other (sometimes more important) things. Lately the Lord, in His graciousness, has been leading me back to my most important ministry (aside from my marriage), my children. As Christians, we are called to make disciples. As parents, we are called to disciple our children. We get to be a tool in God’s hand forming and molding another human soul!
As I seek the Lord in this area He leads me to such questions…
Am I intentionally investing in the lives of my children daily?
Am I available to my children throughout the day or do they feel like they’re bothering me?
Am I setting aside time to have real conversations rather than half listening?
Am I allowing the Lord to use me as His tool to form their souls or am I distracted with other “important” things?
I deeply long to make the greatest impact for the kingdom of God as I possibly can. Where else do I have the greatest opportunity to speak life, truth and the Gospel then in my own home? Peter and I pray each night that our children would grow in faith, knowing the Lord and having a passionate desire to reach the nations. We know that their growth in the Lord starts now, even at this young age.
And so I will strive to savor these years of chaos and spend intentional time with them— sharing Christ with them, being available and discipling them as the Lord leads me. I know I will forget the mission and fail daily.
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. (Ephesians 2:4-10)
I thank the Lord that there is grace for the days that I forget and fail. And that there is community and the church body to remind me of the mission and to point me (and my family) back to the Gospel. But mostly, I thank the Lord that He will never fail my children and that they have a perfect parent in Him. And that this perfect Father has always had a rescue plan for redemption.
What started off as a simple birthday post ended up being a giant reflection piece! hahaha. So back to the original purpose… Happy Birthday to Sawyer, our funny, corky, vocal and WAY too smart for her age daughter. Being her momma has led me to more laughter, singing and a lot more dancing. Happy Birthday to our sweet Sawyer and thank you Lord, creator and sustainer of life, for this gift.